Thursday, February 23, 2017

On Reluctant Acquaintances

I know you, yet I don't!
We meet now and then
With friends, at cafes, or on the street
Even in the building where books stay to rest.

We have smiled at each other once
and then looked away.
Been lost in conversations that were to be forgotten.
Said heartless goodbyes only to meet again!

With every new introduction,
We make fresh aquaintance
Before we revert to something else.
Almost like a mark of respect
For the unwillingness to be friends.

I know you, yet I don't.
And I am glad we both keep up the game
Of being awkward acquaintances that get lost and confused by civilised communication.

- The Pen Dusts Itself.

Thursday, April 11, 2013

The Small things that go unnoticed, the Huge things that are too big to be noticed and God...

A picture that I recently found on a friends page, caught my interest. And this post originated while I was trying to pick up conversation with her, wondering what was the message that the post implied.Given below is the message along with the image, followed by what I wanted to clarify.

Galatians 6:7
Do not be deceived: God cannot be mocked. A man reaps what he sows. WHO mocked God : Proverbs 17:5
Whoever mocks the poor shows contempt for their Maker; whoever gloats over disaster will not go unpunished.

John Lennon (Singer):
Some years before, during his interview with an American Magazine, he said:
'Christianity will end, it will disappear.
I do not have to argue about that.. I am certain.
Jesus was ok, but his subjects were too simple, today we are more famous than Him' (1966).
Lennon, after saying that the Beatles were more famous than Jesus Christ, was shot six times.

Tancredo Neves (President of Brazil ):
During the Presidential campaign,he said if he got 500,000 votes from his party, not even God would remove him from Presidency.
Sure he got the votes, but he got sick a day before being made President, then he died.

Cazuza (Bi-sexual Brazilian composer, singer and poet):
During A show in Canecio ( Rio deJaneiro ),
while smoking his cigarette, he puffed out some smoke into the air and said:'God, that's for you.'
He died at the age of 32 of LUNG CANCER in a horrible manner.

The man who built the Titanic
After the construction of Titanic, a reporter asked him how safe the Titanic would be. With an ironic tone he said:
'Not even God can sink it'
The result: I think you all know what happened to the Titanic

Marilyn Monroe (Actress)
She was visited by Billy Graham during a presentation of a show. He said the Spirit of God had sent him to preach to her. After hearing what the Preacher had to say, she said:
'I don't need your Jesus'.
A week later, she was found dead in her apartment

Bon Scott (Singer)
The ex-vocalist of the AC/DC. On one of his 1979 songs he sang: 'Don't stop me; I'm going down all the way, down the highway to hell'.
On the 19th of February 1980, Bon Scott was found dead, he had been choked by his own vomit.

Campinas (IN 2005)
In Campinas , Brazil a group of friends, drunk, went to pick up a friend.....
The mother accompanied her to the car and was so worried about the drunkenness of her friends and she said to the daughter holding her hand, who was already seated in the car: My Daughter, Go With God And May He Protect You.'
She responded: 'Only If He (God) Travels In The Trunk, Cause Inside Here.....It's Already Full '
Hours later, news came by that they had been involved in a fatal accident, everyone had died,
the car could not be recognized what type of car it had been, but surprisingly, the trunk was intact.
The police said there was no way the trunk could have remained intact. To their surprise, inside the trunk was a crate of eggs, none was broken

Christine Hewitt (Jamaican Journalist and entertainer) said the Bible (Word of God) was the worst book ever written.
In June 2006 she was found burnt beyond recognition in her motor vehicle.

Many more important people have forgotten that there is no other name that was given so much authority as the name of Jesus.
Many have died, but only Jesus died and rose again, and he is still alive....
PS: If it was a joke, you would have sent it to everyone. So are you going to have courage to share this?.
I have done my part in sharing.

Do you believe that Jesus is Holy and His name should be Glorified and not Mocked?
If you believe in him, Click write Amen!

I did type in an Amen. Why? I do respect him and believe too.
But what was the post trying to convey? If u do mock or insult him, he punishes you?
And by 'him' I mean GOD, not a God identified by his name. I'm kinda associating Christ as a God, or a God Figure. And so I'm not intending to insult or question any specific form of Faith and belief. Nope. Not at all. But I'm merely asking, about the message this post seems to be sending.
Like shouldn't it be-' Do not mock or Insult him cos you love him, believe in him, he's your Lord, the all forgiving Father who protects you and forgives you your sin? ', instead of it being ' Do not mock him, cos if you do, you'l be punished. So be careful not to Insult him.'

 A few years back, we had these flyers and stuff coming around, Of Lord Shiva, or Christ, or Allah. And they did the same thing, publicize themselves into more hands, by putting up a story on how someone who defied or insulted the Lord ended up dying. So if you care for yourself, re print or redistribute the message and let it reach more hands. That way, God is pleased with you and rewards you.

I mean sometimes they seem like scare tactics, to exploit the human vulnerability related to the unknown or the essentially known. Do we really need all this to proclaim our faith, is my question.
Like shouldn't we be more connected to God on friendlier terms, rather than on fear? Cos I remember these flyers did disturb me as a kid. And erm, I did secretly drop one or two of them where I was sure people would see it. All these even when I knew that God wouldn't do such an awful thing, if I accidentally wronged him.

We've had a season of email pranks, or email doze of human fear sales. There have been mails that told stories of people who ignored a mail and din't forward it before midnight and as a result, got murdered or killed or, hold on, I don't even want to go on...Curiosity killed no cat at my place. After first trembling with fear, I used to forward it removing the Post Script that mentioned- '' Forward this mail to 15 of your friends else get killed.'' Later I learnt to totally ignore these mails.

Yet another form of posts that still haunts Facebook- ''If you love your Mother, re-post this'', ''If you love your Father, share this'', ''...your brother, comment..'' How does posting a random picture someone else compiled on your page make you love your mom? Of course you are indirectly expressing it and sending a message to your loved ones. Sharing it proclaims to the world that you love them. Well, what have I got to say on this? Your parents, your profile, your life, you'll do what you want. Proclaim your love- so be it. Yet, nobody cares how you treat em (your parents, of course) within your home. And sometimes I've got a photo of some random guy who finally managed to get a narrowly-shaky-but-almost-there photo, (the best part's yet to come) with a tagline or a water mark- ''If you love your mother share''. Oh for all the horrors of it, I'm so sure my mother would not have wanted me to share that...

Which reminds me that I've meandered away from my topic- The fear of God. We need fear to keep our grayer sides in check- I couldn't agree more. And there's no institution unlike religion that can perhaps have a better moral impact on us. But fear should be of wrong doing and not of the 'God'. You express your views on the most sacred, patient and comforting institutions of all times- religion, by perhaps using a bit of your heart and not terrorizing people. I believe, when we speak of the Lord as the ever loving. all forgiving and ever understanding ray of hope and love, it is demeaning for us to instill fear in our fellow beings in Gods name.We are speaking at a time where wars have been waged in his name- And all those who caused it, or were part of it, better be dead by now. Ironically not all of them are dead I suppose.

 Perhaps the God punishes you not for what you did to him, but for what you did to one among you. When God said, 'Whoever mocks the poor shows contempt for their maker; whoever gloats over disaster will not go unpunished', he meant- Be good to one another,and thereby good to him too.

The kid inside me is still scared reading that post. Perhaps, though I haven't in anyway tried to insult him, what if this is deemed to be so? I certainly don't want to be scared of God in such a way. I want to be friends with him. For me religion should be synonymous to hope, a hope of a better tomorrow, the flag ship of the glorious past, the explanation to all the unanswered questions around, and not a heralder of fear. Religion is freedom and religion should be liberating.

Time and again people ask me about my religious stand- Agnostic? Gnostic? Atheist? Theist? Do I have to confirm myself into a group, under a label? Do I believe in your God? I do.. Do I believe in mine? I do. But like you do? Nope... I believe in God, in my own very little ways, which neither do I have the ability, or inclination now to explain. I do not mess with your faith, nor do I question it. I believe in a religion that believes in humanity, a religion where the God can be awakened from with in, irrespective of a name or a language, of community or ethnicity, of gender or of race, of temple or of church....I believe in a God whose presence I can feel, when I seek, without fear, irrespective of whether I'm within a church or a mosque. I believe in the God who is the reason for not having and not wanting a reason.

And God continues to live within, in all the Small things that go unnoticed and all the Huge things that are too big to be noticed. 

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

The Paradise of Strangers

The darkest hours of December had a story to tell;

When in the cold, bitter, harshness of realization I lay,

For then upon the frozen graves of my deepest affection, I fell.

In the blinding darkness, crawled, cried, craved, each day,

Or so it seemed; for when in knowing someone well, you un-know the rest,

And so, I who once looked upon the world with a smile, now does little recognize my own way.

A sister, a mother, a dad, a brother, and yet like a teacher you put me to test;

A scale, a unit, some figures and then math, all you mentioned like an investor,

We had a story to make, a fairy tale of faith, and hence I made no protest.

Should have known in this being we had, I was not a benefactor;

Soon my fairies and angels took flight into the air,

And to stay away from these exploding emotions, I took the detonator.

Now in this ringing silence, I hear a sound distinctly fair;

Unknown, unheard, yet soothingly so, to stop me groping in vain,

In the presence of the new one, life, it seemed, I could bear.

There seemed to be no more pain,

This one that came, made a paradise of my world.

He commanded – Let there be light!

And there sprung morning from night.

Thursday, August 25, 2011

Unraveling 'The Me'

I believe that if ever there was a moment of total transformation, it was the moment of our birth. In that instant, we stepped through a door in time into a new reality -the reality of human life,the moment when the curtain goes up in our lives
How do we speak about ourselves? I doubt anyone, or for the matter, I, could define myself, let alone clearly distinguish my likes and dislikes and sketch myself in words, without an external help. The biggest of all our questions  ' Who am I', is always left unanswered. And we always make vague yet willing attempts to answer it. And that's what I am trying too. Not to answer the question of who I am, but rather to sketch me quite as I know, having taken a great deal of help from around :))

There are times when I seem to enjoy my solitude and prefer to work alone. I need time to contemplate my ideas without the intrusion of other people's thoughts. I keep saying that I am  a lone wolf, a person who lives by her own ideas and methods. As a result, close associations are difficult for me to form and keep. I need my space and privacy, which, when violated, can cause me great frustration and irritation.
But here's the twist, People who know me, wouldn't call me a loner, let alone the fact that I like working alone. For them, I am a people's person. But, I have distinct limits. While I am generous in social situations, sharing my attention and energy freely, I am keenly aware of the need to 'come off stage' and return to the solitude of myself.

I associate peace with the unobtrusive privacy of my world. And what is my world, I decide and that stays. Therefore, intimacy is difficult for me, because I guard my inner world like a mother lion does her cubs.And when someone becomes a part of that world, then, that's another story.

All this privacy and aloneness can cause isolation and loneliness, at times, but I am completely aware that its my choice. I can be aware of emptiness in my life, a part of me that yearns for company and close companionship that may be unsatisfied. But around this wall of mine, I have a zillion people, friends. And with in, a numbered few.

The story of a person who finds it difficult to say 'No'. I remember a teacher telling me- If you do not want to say 'yes', never hesitate to say 'No'. But well, I don't seem to have understood that properly. I am sometimes amazed by the number of calls I receive from friends, when they are in need, or when they merely need someone to listen to them. That's what I have been - A listener. And a diplomatic one at it too... I act at times as the 'feel good factor'. And at moments of great frustration, I call myself the paracetamol.

I am the ultimate mixture of all opposites that I have ever seen. He he... And I seem to like it that way :))
To be a loner at heart and a peoples person too. It makes every one happy.
For now- This would do...

Sunday, August 14, 2011

Not just any other day

There's something about today...
There's this cold breeze that creeps in to my room,
There's the chill that it brings.
There's something about the day I'll never forget

Weird, I just sit here, as always staring at this lil lit screen of mine and to find myself want to finish off all my drafts. But instead now I make a new post. There's something I need to say, yet so untrue to how I feel, I don't know what to say. For the first time in  my life, I am lost for words. That strange feeling you get when what you want to say is stuck right at your throat.

So, I opt out- the messages simple- I think there's this one point of exasperation that everyone goes through...
And today, just minutes back, I happened to get a note of how exasperated one could be with everything around...Somehow that one drew in directly through the skin without the brain having to register it.

Not just any other day
There's something about the day,
Something that eats me up.
There's something to the words delivered,
Something that pushes me off.
I told you, there's something about the day..
Something that I'l never forget..

P.S- This post has been revived from the draft after weeks of being there...

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

Twain the hero :D

Mark Twain...
I'm flabbergasted with the amount of 'nonsense' ( according to the prevailing social standards) that this man has amounted to say. But somehow it has increased my respect for the man.. So here goes some of them..

1."Never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option."
So true Mr.Twain, so true- perfectly worded. Bravo!

2."Eat a live frog first thing in the morning and nothing worse will happen to you the rest of the day."
Ha Ha Ha.. true.

3."I like a thin book because it can steady a table, a leather volume because it will strop a razor, and a heavy book because it can be thrown at a cat."
And who ever thought he would say that? I wonder what he used for squatting flies.

4."When angry, count four. When very angry, swear."
What the....? he he

5.''A man cannot be comfortable without his own approval.''
So So true..

6.''A man is never more truthful than when he acknowledges himself a liar.''
There again..

7.''A person with a new idea is a crank until the idea succeeds.''
See see you skeptics..

8.''Age is an issue of mind over matter. If you don't mind, it doesn't matter.''

9''Any emotion, if it is sincere, is involuntary.''

10.''Be careful about reading health books. You may die of a misprint.''
True he he

11.''As an example to others, and not that I care for moderation myself, it has always been my rule never to smoke when asleep, and never to refrain from smoking when awake.''
Hmph he had a way of saying everything

12.''I haven't any right to criticize books, and I don't do it except when I hate them. I often want to criticize Jane Austen, but her books madden me so that I can't conceal my frenzy from the reader; and therefore I have to stop every time I begin. Every time I read Pride and Prejudice I want to dig her up and beat her over the skull with her own shin-bone.''
OMG he was er I can't find the right word...sensational?

13.''All right, then, I'll go to hell.''
Oh ok :D- He said that too :D

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

To Worlds End

Even clipped wings dream of soaring high up in the blue sky.
Cos ultimately, all of us are human beings with small minds but bigger dreams. What makes us more focussed on our dreams? What defines them for each one of us is different. I belive in the beauty of shared dreams, because sometimes dreams we dream for a loved one has more of drive power than dreams that we make on for our sake- you dont have to agree :))

But to times when you can no longer see the dream, when in the scorching sun you have no shade, in the dizzy times you have no hand, in the fall no one to break...
Some dreams lose their luster in time.. But I still believe that there's nothing as strong as a dream driven by love. To you it would turn dull, but I would still go on for the one I care for. Its not just a promise, its my reason for being alive!
For now, I know I'v been reading essentially the same book, in a different cover, sporting a different blurb...

Away, Away and Away,
To where the world ends, to where the sky and the sea meets,
To where the night and day makes no difference,
To where existence is no longer the priority,
To where sunshine and shadow no longer exists..
To-Worlds End :)))